Me, Myself and I

Irrelevance

2012-02-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

My first post in 2012. That fact is irrelevant to anything. Not many would be fortunate enough to ever read this so if you are, rejoice and be comforted by the also irrelevant fact that you are the only people to read this. Repetition for the win. Where am I going with this post, I'm not too sure.

Okay, let's go. Sometimes I feel irrelevant too. Irrelevant at class. Irrelevant at school. So basically I feel irrelevant in this world so far. At this stage, my life revolves around life in school but not for long. Hopefully, my irrelevance would improve in the future when I'll be off somewhere reinventing myself and being a better person.

Still, I'm in the present now. So the question is : Why do I feel irrelevant especially? Normally, I'd start answering this question by flipping the pages of my dictionary for a definition. Since this is not an English exam question, I'll just use my head. I don't feel involved in anything. Sure I'm a student and as a student I do my homework, do a bit of studying, hang out with my friends and other mischief. I just feel left out in the running of things. I don't feel essential to anything. If I were to be absent indefinitely, nobody would be too bothered. At least that's how I feel. Maybe this will improve.

Now, some might say that I'm being ungrateful. I might be but I really thank everyone who has ever given a damn about me. Thank you. And this would be my last year in a school which I have made many memories and as many friends. I don't want to leave at a bad note. So, I'd be trying my best to show my gratitude to everyone and everything that happens this year.

What a nice way to start posting once again.

December...

2011-12-09T16:02:00.000+08:00

Gosh, where has all time gone? The time has run away in the blink of an eye. I still remember the first day of school this year. As if it was yesterday. 11 months on and here I am. Don't get wrong. If time never moved on, we wouldn't experience anything and we wouldn't grow into what we are today. Through the passing of time, I'd like to think that I've improved as a person, physically and mentally. Sure, there are certain things that are still annoying me but hey, I still have time even though it is moving at a blistering pace. Mark my words. Sooner or later I would be off somewhere living my own life, older and wiser. I'm sure you would be living your lives in your own ways too. It's scary to think of the future but I'm not focusing too far into the future. My main objective is the here and now. See, if I screw up today, tomorrow would be bad for me. Simple, right?

December is also the month of Christmas, both the religious one and the overhyped and overmarketed one. At least it's the season to be jolly. Spend time with our families. Exchange presents. It's also the last month of the year before a new one begins. So wouldn't we want to forgive people who have done us wrong and also to be forgiven? That's it for now. Hopefully, I'll post soon.

The next month is November.

2011-11-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

Yes it's November already and it's a special day. 11th day of the 11th month of the 11th year in this millenium. This happens every 1000 years. Many people have been looking forward to this day. Some say it's the date for all singles. Some say it's lucky. My friend wants to make a wish later at 11.11pm and 11 seconds. That's because he missed his wish at 1.11pm and 11 seconds. His reaction when I told him the time that time(haha)? "FUCK!". Reasonable reaction, no?

That man knows how to express himself. In symbols.

I'm still not convinced that today has any extra significance. Well, it may be the only 11.11.11 I'll ever have the pleasure of living through and that's the only significance that I can think of. However, everyday is different. We will not go through tomorrow like we did today. So yes in that sense today was special.

My school had its annual Talentine competition today. What I can say is that this year's competition is the most competitive and all the acts are top notch. I can only reacall one act which screwed up. Overall, I had an enjoyable time. Sadly this would be the last time I'd be able to enjoy it. The winner ended up to be a guitar solo act. What won it for him was his ability to entertain the crowd. He played to the crowd well but I think he overplayed it a little. Still his guitar skills were great and I have no complaints.

I do feel the urge to say something though. When the winner finished his performance and went up on stage to receive his reward, everybody was clapping and cheering on rapturously. People were talking about how amazing he was. The funny thing to me was many people had a gripe with him before.

He isn't exactly the person everybody wants to be friends with. He had ruffled the wrong feathers before. When he was performing I saw one of my teachers literally chuffed to bits. She must have thought that he was novelty like a funny doll doing its thing, like he was a clown making people laugh. Nobody had thought he had an ability to play the guitar. Nobody had taken him seriously before. Maybe people thought the performance was a comedy show.

Suddenly, people are saying congratulations and saying how great he was just after he proved his abilities. I feel that people want to be a part of his glory. The sad thing is that nobody wanted to have anything to do with him before. It just proves my theory that people are like crustaceans looking for a shell. If there is a good shell, the crustacean would use it and when it wears out the crab will leave it behind. Just like people. They only want to share the good times, not the bullcrap.

I think you might have had enough of my rant. Now I rest.

The next month

2011-09-04T18:55:00.000+08:00

Inspiration comes and goes. Surprisingly, all sort of inspiration to blog left me for the month of August. It's like a friend who went on vacation. He just came back yesterday from the wilderness of BOREDOM and gave me a souvenir: the ability to blog. So we are all very grateful to Mr. Inspiration.

I'm on the last day of a one week holiday for Hari Raya and Merdeka. Like any other holiday, I feel I have wasted this holiday. Maybe I didn't. I could have gained something in my subconscious. I definitely bonded with my parents. We were going to different places almost everyday. By "places" I mean shopping malls. In shopping malls there obviously stuff to buy. Most of the stufff are clothes. That's a problem. I saw clothes after clothes after clothes until I got sick of them. I have to admit that I'm not a shopping person like the majority of guys aren't either. It's cool once a week, not 7 days a week. Oh well, let's see if I'd be saying the same thing when school resumes.

The highlight of the holiday would be my friend Sarah's birthday "thing". I can't think of a word to call it. Basically, she invited 7 people to a hotel for lunch and dinner at a hotel. Me and 2 other guys stayed overnight in the room booked for this "thing". The "thing" was awesome and fun. Awesome-ly fun. Funnily awesome. I managed to socialise with friends I had been dying to "get-to-know" better. And Sarah, if you are reading this, I am eternally honoured to had been invited.

What is the word to use when you want to "get-to-know" someone better? I've come up with "attracted". Can anyone think of a better word? I would love to say that I'm preparing another video to upload soon but I beat around the bush a lot. So replace "preparing" with "thinking of an idea for" and "soon" with "within the next 5 years" and you'd get what I mean. Well, we have to start somewhere.

Dilemna.

2011-07-31T17:11:00.000+08:00

While my friends, Marcus and Sarah, went for a Christian Fellowship Rally and concert, I went to a party with loud music, dancing and girls wearing skimpy outfits. God bless my soul.

That party was Su Min's 16th birthday party. I'm not even sure the term "birthday" should be used here. When I think of "birthday", I think of cakes, candles, smiles, balloons, clowns and basically bright places. Instead what I experienced was more of "teenager's wet dream" than "birthday". The scene was more like this:

"Mommy, where them girls at?"

The place was called Sanook. The party was on the second floor. There was a bar. You know the one serving alcohol type. Not the ones you walk into and hurt yourself. It was dimly lit with brightly coloured lights. About 70 people came. That's a lot for a small place.

It started innocently enough. The girls were still in skimpy outfits though. Not that I'm complaining much. We played a game where the person needs to bite a bag on the floor on one leg. With every successful try, the bag is folded smaller.

The fun started when the girls played musical chairs. The catch: Guys are sitting on the chairs. So, you know, the girls had to sit on the guys. I was one of the guys *jumps for joy*. Now, I'm not the most horny person you'll ever meet but it was...exciting? This was the first time and it feels weird to have girl to sit on my legs. I will never view a game of musical chairs the same again. I think I was one of the last 5 guys sitting. Needless to say, it was fun although my thighs felt slightly sore afterwards.

This, to a somewhat lesser extent, happened.

At about 9, Su Min blew the candle off and made a speech. The party went wild after that. Did I mention there was a Dj playing music? He turned the volumes up and everybody started dancing. Everybody showed off their moves. Me? I sat on the chair. I can't dance to save my life. I tried though but all I did was jump around like a monkey. Many did that too. Everyone was hot and sweaty after dancing.

I went home at about 11. In conclusion. I'm not well suited to clubbing. I'll have some fun but I wouldn't want to go clubbing many times. One last thing to say: Happy Birthday and thank you for inviting me Su Min.

P.s. Don't judge me. Please?

3 days later.

2011-07-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

When I asked someone, "Have I changed?", he replied, " NO, YOU NEVER CHANGE!".

He sure looks angry. Maybe if I tickle him...

It was actually more like this, "No, you never change." I can't tell everyone I have changed because I don't know that. All I can say for sure is I look more like my dad everyday. Even then my look hasn't changed over the years. I roughly have the same hair, the same face and the same frown. Do you think I have changed?
I remember crying a lot in Pre-school because of dreaded CRAMPS. In Primary school, I was super quiet. I stuck exclusively to a few friends. I realized how quiet I was because some of my friends forgot that I was in their class. HOW CAN THEY FORGET ME!?

When I was in Std 6, everything changed for the better. I started talking more, being more gay and had more friends. It improved until now. I'm less quite but I'm still quiet. Confused? I'm content with the connections I've made so far. But I still feel that I'm too quiet. Can anyone help me?

3 days is a long time in the internet world. In the real world? Not very long. Or is it the other way around?Anyway, I'll probably upload a new video next week. Hopefully I'd have something to talk about by that time.

Reactions to video.

2011-07-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

In the last few days I have uploaded 2 videos featuring me talking. I'm proud and grateful to say that I received positive comments about both of them. Thank you everyone.

So today was the unexpected holiday. Nothing happened today. I can't say that I'm surprised. I'm not a fan of a holiday between school days. Of course you'd be happy the day before but then, when it's actually the holiday you'd be wondering,"Oh dear. Tomorrow is a school day. I have homework and an exam tomorrow. It's 11.22 p.m. and I haven't done my English homework."

Things I Did Today

Woke up at 6 a.m. After I showered, I slept again before waking up at 7.30 a.m.
Had breakfast.
Watched some tv.
Sat on a chair outside on my balcony. Self-meditation? It was peaceful.
10 minutes later, I got bored and started watching movies.
3 hours later, my parents came home and we had lunch.
Played a game on my laptop before taking a nap. A 4 hour nap.
Woke up and had dinner. Took a shower.
Watched a Korean drama.
Here I am, posting this on my blog. Reading positive comments about the videos. Thanks again everyone!

Featuring Tuesday as Holiday and Me in pink shirt.

2011-07-26T00:35:00.000+08:00

The 2nd video. Enjoy.

By the way...

2011-07-25T20:41:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's post was the 130th for this blog. How could I have forgotten? So bravo to everyone who has supported my blog by reading or even spamming my C-box. Your links to unnecessary websites are deeply appreciated as you actually had to take the trouble to visit my blog before commenting. Bravo everyone!

Everyday, especially on Mondays, when I wake up from bed I'll tell myself, "Well, it's time to wake up today but it's not too bad, you know. Everyday, something special will happen." I think I'll have to face the mirror later to say,"I told you so!". At assembly today, the principal announced that tomorrow, 26th July 2011, would be an official school holiday. Yay. The reason behind this grand idea is that our school, the awesome Sri Kuala Lumpur, grabbed the 1st and 2nd places at CHEER 2011. CHEER is the largest national cheerleading competition so it is an achievement.

You must have noticed the lack of an exclaimation mark after the "Yay". The reason is simple. I'm just not that extremely hysterical. Many people were though. From the reactions to the news, an outsider might think that we just won a million dollar lottery. C'mon, it's only a day. I still appreciate the holiday but it's nothing to pee in your pants about.

Just what I was looking for.

If you didn't notice, I posted a video yesterday. What do you think? Was I clear enough? More videos soon.

Not what I wanted to see.

The very first video.

2011-07-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

This is the very first video that I have made for this blog. The world premiere of my video only on evan123apple@blogspot.com. You should feel privileged.

Add a little colour.

2011-07-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

My blog is blue. A little too blue. Before this, it was green. Too green. So I'll try to post some pictures just to add a little COLOUR.

I Google-d "picture" and here's what I got:

"I see your point."

"Now, you're just being cheeky. GET IT?"

"(STARES AT READERS)"

"HORSE LOVE"

"HA! You're tacky."

"Hey there, morning glory."

I think that's enough for today.

Mosquito Water

2011-07-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

Can relationships actually be like "mosquito water". You know, stagnant water. It's where mosquitoes breed. It's when that the water is stable and not moving much. Now, do you know of a relationship that resembles "mosquito water"? Yes, it may be stable but then it is not moving forward. It's just staying there, letting mosquitoes breed all over it. I know I have some relationships like these. When I meet some people, it's like "Hi" and "Hey". Then it goes on to ,"What are you doing?", "How's the weekend?" and etc. Finally: (drum roll)..."BYE". Of course the relationship is stable. There is nothing to stimulate the relationship, nothing that tries to improve it into something more. It's acceptable when it is an acquaintance but not really good when I've known someone for quite some time. Maybe it's just me.

Is there a point in finding a date?

2011-07-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

Well, is there? Let's just imagine that I'm lucky enough to find a date. I can hear someone laughing in the distance. I never had a date before so I would love it to be something special. But, the question is what can I do to make it look like I have a date. You know those movies about proms and the stuff that goes with it. Pick up your date at the date's home. Go to the prom together. Be polite throughout the whole thing. You kiss your date. Another girl comes in and slaps your face. You know. Realistically, only one of those things I can actually do which is being polite. I can't pick up my date at the date's home or go to the prom together. It would be a miracle if I do kiss my date. And why would a girl slap me? I'm a nice person.

The thing is how can I even find a date? How do I approach a girl and ask her to be my date? The last time I asked someone to be my Valentine, I was disappointed. Do I just go and say,"Hey, wanna have a good time?". Then I would actually get slapped. I also think that I need to actually like the girl to bring her as my date. It could be just a fun thing to do as friends. Hmmm, can anyone help me?

The End

2011-07-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

Just watched Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows: Part 2 today. It is finally over. Harry Potter lived "happily ever after"(sorry for the spoiler). Right at the moment the credits started rolling, emptiness set in. "Now what?". So, I made a list...

THINGS TO DO AFTER HARRY POTTER

Take a deep breath. Reminisce. Cry. Anything to accept the end.
Use the toilet. Makes you feel better.
EAT. Because you ran out of popcorn and sat through the whole movie.
Sleep. Rest your mind. Rest your eyes.
Reflect about how Harry Potter relates to your own life. Obviously in real-life there's school. And magic (Obviously).
Think about what homework you have. Especially on weekends.
Discuss. So SNAPE was a good guy after all. So it WAS a good movie. SO it's all OVER.

Side-Tracked

2011-07-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

We all have those days when we were supposed to do something that we've planned for some time only for something else to crop out. Today, I had one of those days. Thankfully, it was worth it.

My school is organising a charity concert on this Saturday. For today they had a matinee show just for the students. I bought a ticket for RM5 and gave another 5 all in the name of charity. That and a little "encouragement" from the principal.

I found a few friends who were going too so I was ready. Then, out of nowhere, Ryan apparently had already moved to his new CONDOM-inium (sorry!) and he politely invited us over for a visit. So off we went for an adventure. Me, Marcus Lee, Ryan Teo, Belinda Yee and Sarah Leow had a fun time getting there. Now you know their full names, please don't harm them.

Anyway, first we bought lunch from KFC. Just nearby the restaurant, Belinda (with a bandaged foot) almost fell into a drain. The sad and pathetic part is that it happened right in front of me. I froze. Imagine if she had fallen. Imagine.

We arrived at the CONDOM-inium (can't help it), had chicken, played some PS3, watched the girls play some FIFA (wasn't the best) and then we had to leave. The journey back was just as eventful. A car almost hit Belinda. Only this time I managed to grab her away! HERO!

Luckily, we're all still alive. So in conclusion nobody is ever safe. Group adventures are fun. The end.

50 kg (Barely)

2011-06-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

I am barely 50 kg. Scratch that. I AM 50 kg at this very moment according to my IKEA weighing scale. That means that I am slightly underweight. It is easy to admit that I am underweight. To me, it's no big deal. When the oppurtunity strikes, I may find a diet that fills my skin and bones and a fitness program that allows me to build my muscles. No big deal.

On another note, I feel that skinny people aren't getting enough sympathy unlike overweight and obese people. Generally, people seem to assume that it's easy for us to gain that extra weight to be "normal". Let me tell you that many skinny people are having a hard time to gain weight. There's no exact way. The world seems focus on losing the weight instead of gaining them. Instead of "The Biggest Loser" we should have "The Biggest Loser". Oh, I just realised that heavy eaters might abuse the idea and the winner would be 100 +kg. That's a bad idea.

However, people at the wrong ends of the scale might have a bone to pick with people meddling with their weight issue. We do get offended in many but sometimes subtle ways. It's not a very big deal but it does exist. Just this day, my friend told me that she could use my ribs as a xylophone. Haha. Slightly hilarious.

Finally, I want to delve into the subject of opinion. In the end that is why most of us are focused on our weight: people's perception. As a fact, skinny or fat people are not considered hot or sexy. Maybe I am still in my teens and it could all change when I enter adulthood but right now I am literally small-fish and not a threat. People aren't scared of me. I'm scared of big people. I don't have physical presence. I think that's my biggest problem with my weight.

Solving the boredom problem.

2011-05-31T08:44:00.000+08:00

Just beginning the seond day of the holidays, boredom has set in with its mighty hopelessness. Imagine, me setting my alarm for 7.30 a.m. and waking up at 7.15 a.m. just to experience boredom. I can't do much about it but I can record my boredom for an hour.You know so I can spread this disease. The day is Tuesday 31 May 2011.

7.50 a.m.-Had noodles for breakfast. Started watching news highlights. Repeating every 10 minutes.

8.15 a.m.-My parents have left for work. Got the whole place to myself. Problem: Do you know how big a condomnium unit is? Exactly. Now, I am watching campy 80's and 90's MTV videos. What were they thinking back then?

8.20 a.m.-"Isn't it fascinating how mother nature works?" Not right now. So many channels. So little excitement.

8.25 a.m.-I'm not smarter than a 5th grader. That's just sad. I've been updating for 10 minutes. Maybe I should lay low for a while.

8.40 a.m.-Had the most boring shower. Realising that fact made me laugh so I felt less bored. That made me felt lifeless.

8.45 a.m.-Justin Bieber just appeared out of no where. Everything is possible according to him. My brain needs to digest his words properly to avoid turning into a girl.

8.50 a.m.- "So, which one of you girls want to make out with me?" That sentence blew me away.

That's it for now.

30 May 2011

2011-05-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

Let there be holidays. I've just completed my exams which is a good thing for obvious reasons. Personally, I didn't think I did my best. Probably because I didn't study properly. Maybe it's just my first foray into Year 10 exams. (yay! I used foray in a sentence). I set an aim for the holidays, an aim I might not achieve. I'm willing myself to understand Add Maths. Pray for my soul.

Moving on, I think I did a great job in completely ignoring the fact that this would be the first post since April-ish. There must be an explanation for the lack of activity surely. There was a phase which I, along with many of my friends, went through. So many started to blog so I followed suit. (another yay). It was all sweet and joyous because I blogged regularly and so did my friends. Sadly, 2010 came by. Don't get me wrong, 2010 was a great year, just not a great year for my blogging life. I started leaving my blog then started again. Then I left it again. Then I started it again. This went on until the most recent "ignoring of blog". I've decided to try and blog constantly again. There are many things happening now and blogging is a way of transmitting my thoughts and opinions somewhere. It's like therapy for me. It's like the song "Memories". This is the "crazy shit". Today is the beginning.

11 Days

2011-03-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

It's been 11 days since my last post. I couldn't help. The first term break was an opportunity to sit back and relax. I've discovered things and stuff during those 11 days. If anyone would like to chat with me face-to-face then I'd tell you about them.

Today, I had my lake-run. Yet again, I've been disappointed. I don't believe that I'll ever qualify.The time-limit for Year 10s is 6 minutes. So, next year I have to run under 5 minutes 30 seconds. Logically, if I can't run under six then I won't be able to qualify next year too. I've had my chances. Well, there is still the cross-country and I aim to qualify in that event.

Japan is improving. However, there is still the nuclear reactor and radiation problems. We still pray and hope that the situation improves, don't we?

I realized on Thursday that I have no real hobbies. I had to go to each club and society to distribute forms for my Scouts Troop (which is awesome) and I got to see all the activities going on. There's the Band, Christian Fellowship, Dance, Table tennis, Athletics and so many more. I have neither ability or interest in any of those (except CF but I'm not ready for it yet). My passions are football, which everyone should adore, and video games, which actually make you smarter. I don't see myself as a nerd or a geek in anything. I can't actually play football in a team because P.E lessons are different. I could play during other times but footballers intimidate me.

Actually, anyone strong and active intimidates me. I know that they are cool and awesome. Some are rather popular. I think I'm quite active.When I play any sports I play for fun. I don't really know how to explain it. They are stronger than me for starters. Does that make them better than me? I should think about it more.

Parties

2011-03-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

My perfect party would have me being the best dressed person in the party with the rest looking like total idiots. In that party, nothing could ever go wrong. But who has ever experienced the "perfect" party?
Grace had a party yesterday. I was the third to arrive. I wore full-black with a red tie. Stylish. I thought that I was freaking awesome. Then, the others started to arrive. Then, Marcus came. You know, I was like "Hey, it's my friend Marcus. Maybe I should say hello. Hmmm...something's strange. OH NO! HE IS WEARING THE SAME THING AS I AM." Yeah, so I wasn't pleasantly surprised. Apparently, he came up with the idea first. I'm too sure. The main point is that we look like twins

Then, more people arrived. People started talking and chatting. The place, Klafz, was rather nice. It's quite simple. Around 30 people came and 3 of that thirty wore the same thing. That's right. Another person had the same idea. Full-black with red tie. That is the weakest idea in dressing up. Now, there's the triplets.

Eventually, the party started. There were balloons, nail-polish and music. It was fun. The food was good. There was mushroom soup with cheese, chicken chop, fried rice, pizza, mashed potatoes, fried egg, spaghetti and fruits. Nobody touched the fruits. For drinks we had fruit juice. All in all, everyone was well fed.

We played some games. Two to be exact. The first was Truth or Dare. I don't really know why they called it that. Might as well called it Truth. That's not a nice name. Redza had to break dance. Shao Ming had to rap. Grace went to another restaurant and yell that it was her birthday. Someone had to carry the person in front of him and that person wasn't light. Hariz had to apply lipstick on a peron of his choice. He chose me. Well, the others chose me. I went to him, closed my eyes and Hariz had a fun time. As Marcus said,"It looks like some blind person applied lipstick." Ryan was cowering behind a chair. He was scared. (Not of me but of being picked)

The other game was less interesting. "Receive and Release". As in copy whatever someone does and then do your own action for someone else to copy. Confused? I was. We had cake. A really expensive and hard to make cake. There were layers and layers with chocolate cream and powder. It was really good. We took turns to take photos with Grace before getting the cake. We only had a small piece. It was a really tiny cake.

So, what's the verdict? I had a great time. Recorded enough. Good food. Learned a lesson in fashion. It was a good party.

P.s. We're still praying for Japan. This is my longest post. Ever.

Natural Disaster.

2011-03-11T20:00:00.000+08:00

A 8.9 magnitude earthquake in Japan caused a tsunami to hit the north-eastern part of the country. So far, 5 people have been confirmed dead but there was massive destruction. Our thoughts are to the safety of the country and to everyone affected. Pray for Japan.

Happy Discovery of Rings Around Uranus Day.

2011-03-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

I'm glad that I am blogging more regularly now. Thanks for anyone who takes the time to read this. I really appreciate it.

So what do I have today? Nothing much. March 10 is the 69th day of the year. But really, does that mean anything? Maybe it shows how awesome Wikipedia.org is. I've realized that there are two main groups of people that I do not get along well with: Stupid and Cocky. They are like twins. There really isn't any difference. One person can be BOTH stupid and cocky. Cocky. Cocky. Even the word "cocky" is stupid. We hate stupid and cocky people, don't we? Mr. Stupid makes our lives harder and Mr. Cocky makes hating people seem like a good idea.

Really looking forward to the one week holidays. I need a break from the pressures of school. It's only March and I feel the burn already. I will wake up early and exercise during the holidays. I think it's going to be great. Can't wait!

Happy International Women's Day

2011-03-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

It's International Women's Day today. How is this supposed to benefit me I don't really know but we appreciate all women everywhere on this day.

Just found out that not all teachers are as miserable as I seem to think. My Additional Maths teacher is very cool and mordern. He has an impressively active Facebook page. That's just amazing especially from a teacher. He is a movie fan and has lots of hobbies. I'm still not sure if I should add him. He seems awesome.You know, there's a a strange relationship between teachers and students. We're willing to freely communicate and be friends but somehow not all of us are.

Anyhow, I need to bring forth a serious issue: Happy-Looking-Camwhores. I've really got no problems with camwhores. At least no serious issues. However, they really annoy me when they force themselves to look happy. With the teeth pooping out. With the eyes. Really! .So as a potential solution let me introduce the first ever angry and grumpy camwhore picture. Seriously.

Notice the anger.

The Future...

2011-03-07T17:48:00.000+08:00

From all that I have heard, seen and been told about, the future is not bright. It's like...hmm...like...a cave? You go in deeper and deeper and it will get darker. Eventually, you'll hit a dead end. Then what happens? Do you track back or just give up? Moral of the story: DO NOT GO INTO CAVES. There are open skies and fresh air outside the cave. Why throw it all away by going into a dark place.

That's just me giving my "readers" some advice. On life. Me. Giving advice. Not a really good combination of words. Anyway I use the term "readers" very loosely. I really don't have any. My mistake for focusing on my studies. However, looking out for myself did get me straight A's so...you get the point. Just realised how odd it is to use the word "you" if they aren't any readers. I may be losing it.

I will start blogging more frequently. So I really hope that I regain my viewership back. I am the sheperd herding the flock back after a wild night. This could be almost impossible.

P.s. Hi Sarah!

Happy Valentine's Day.

2011-02-14T18:27:00.000+08:00

Hello. My name is Evan Budianto and I am single. Even on Valentine's Day. Surprisingly, the festivities of love went by humbly. Like a donkey, minding its own business and not disturbing anyone.Like an Eyor. While some of you may Google the correct spelling of the lovable donkey, let me go on further. I forgot that today is actually Valentine's Day. Don't we all? Obviously the single may agree. Painfully agree. Unlike those kind of singles, I feel content with single-ness. There are love and chocolates and then there are single people and more single people. That's just the way of the world. The couples are the"lucky" ones, depending on what's the meaning of that.

One thing that got me thinking is that the fairer sex are the ones receiving. At least most of them (there's a girl in my class who gave everyone chocolates. I don't think that means she's my Valentine. For the record I left my gift in class.) Yet, there are more girls in the world. What's the sense in that? The girls should be clamouring for the guys. Animal instincts is the word I think. Ego comes into it too.

I started the day like all Mondays : Sleepily. I got into class put my bags and R is there. Who's this R? He is a guy with a plan for Valentine's. I've known this for a week. Time went on until about 10 minutes before assembly. He went to some place with S. For what? Valentine's gift giving. Yay. Things were constant today. The only thing that remains is my single-ity. I'm not prepared for intimate, romantic relationships. Yet.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

2010-12-27T19:33:00.003+08:00

The year is coming to an end. Nothing much has changed, I realized. I am still more or less the same person. The way I go about things are unchanged. If someone didn't like me before they're unlikely to be my friends anytime soon. 2011 will be a new year. I will be in Year 10 and I will meet and get to know more people. Unlike myself, the people I know have changed a lot during the past year. Not necessarily a whole personality makeover but still. My routine throughout the year was about the same as last year. Wake up, School, go home, eat, sleep, wake up, homework and it continues till the weekends. Don't get me wrong. The year was awesome. I think I've improved myself in many ways but I can't put my finger on any of them. I hope next year would be better if you can even top "awesome". To anyone whom I know and is reading this, I'm sorry for any wrong or harm I may have done. I may have crossed the line on more than one occassions. I thank you all for bearing with me throughout this year. Happy New Year 2011.

Stars Don't Like Explaining Themselves.

2010-11-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

10..20 p.m. Nothing much has happened. Just like the days before this day. I am alone during the mornings. All alone by myself. All the time in the world. I've ran out of plans in just the second week of the holidays. Wow. I absolutely need to get to know someone. So I'll actually have social contact. The best contact happens at school but I'll just have to wait until next year. What should I do? Maybe a new relationship could blossom next year. What if I want it now? It's fun getting to know someone because it's creative thinking at its best. We have to understand, remember, be funny, attract the other person in ways that we're not always used to. Sometimes it's like lyinng to yourself. So you are actually lying to them in a way. That is my theory of getting to know somebody. Just wow. The holiday blues. It is tearing me apart very slowly.

Post PMR- NOT SO GOOD

2010-10-25T17:40:00.003+08:00

I can't believe that it has been 19 days since my last post. Since then, lots of shit has happened. The main part of said shit is the death of PMR as far as I'm willing to bother. The other thing to seriously note is that post-PMR is not for everyone. It's boring, tedious, uneventful and just not my regular cup of tea.

Actually, come to think about it, post-PMR is just like my cup of tea. Sugarless. There's no spark. I'm struggling to be occupied in a constructive way. The things I keep myself occupied with in the long run can make the ordinary brain explode into pieces. Most of the things that I envisioned would happen, didn't. We now have too much free-time in school. I've never thought that I could say that. Anyway, since quite a few of my classmates are not going to school regularly now I'd just like to wish all of 3 Beta and other Form 3 students to have a great life. It's been an epic 3 years and we were in the journey together. Do keep in touch.

9.05 a.m.

2010-09-06T09:05:00.002+08:00

Now, obviously I missed posting yesterday. So, to make up for it I'm posting twice today. Love me or hate me.

I'm currently watching the U.S Tennis Open at New York. There's some good tennis being played. You know, I love most sports. Without sports, I would look like someone who could kill himself. But seriously, sports is always there. It will never go away. Unlike movies and series, which are on 24/7 but maybe not the ones you'd watch. My sport is football. Now, without football I could kill myself. Literally.

Do you know that I'm a Catholic and I go to Sunday School. No you do not. My class is planning a trip to a charitable foundation and I've been appointed as FINANCE MANAGER for this project. Just so you know, being a FINANCE MANAGER isn't easy business. A lot of planning is needed. So I need ideas, which don't grow on trees. But no worries, I'm not desperate. Yet.

You think you're cooler than me.

2010-09-04T21:53:00.002+08:00

Ah, what's better than waking up early at 6 a.m. and taking a walk around the park at my condo, snapping my fingers just to hear the echoes. Then I head to the gym to jog on the treadmill. Things should be going well so far. I start-up the machine, and begin jogging. 1 minute, 2 minutes, 3 minutes, 4 minutes , 5 minutes. Oops I have to pee. That's about 5 minutes. I started jogging again. 1 minute, 2 minutes, 3 minutes....ERROR P 4. THAT, my friends is the start of my Saturday. Which turned out to be a good day. Reminds me of a proverb. Don't judge a book with a boring cover by its boring cover. Who knows what's inside the book. Maybe a good story, erotic scenes, funny jokes, touching lines and another erotic scene. Trust me. I know.

Who's the boss?

2010-09-03T22:41:00.002+08:00

Told you this isn't a monthly affair. I love it when I'm right. Which happens too often. Or too rarely depending on where your allegiances lie. Does it lay with me or that best-friend who has a blog which is dead? Oh, it IS a tough one.

My trials are over. Only 1 month till the big one. Do you want to know what I'll be doing right after the exam? Sure you don't but I will anyway.

I think I'll feel nothing just to act like a grown-up.
The attempt fails completely and I'll start jumping up and down, giving away bear hugs.
Cry and feel pathetic afterwards.
Will probably shout out profanities for the fun of it.
Take a nap. Or sleep for 5 hours.
After that, I'll wake up and finally realised that nothing's changed.
Depressing myself to sleep.
Start the next day like any other day.

There you go. The winners guide to coming to terms with the fact that 3 years of hard work is gone.

...then it was months

2010-09-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

This is NOT a monthly thing. I've just hit a rough patch in the enthusiasm department. It's not like I'm the only one to have hit this phase of every blogger's life.

Anyway, PMR is crawling like a monster you just can't kill. If this was a horror movie, we'd be past the point of an erotic scene and the monster killed during climax. Yup, that's exactly what PMR is like.

For a more personal view, I'm actually supposed to be practising my Math. But I had this sudden urge to post something. Maybe it has got something to do with my state-of-mind. It may be a little screwed up. So bear with me for a couple of weeks. To anyone who may be reading.

PLEASE!

Back for ONLY the 3rd time (hint: sarcasm)

2010-08-02T17:16:00.003+08:00

This is getting harder and harder. I don't know why I'm not able to express my thoughts. It's definitely there in my head. It's just stuck. Like it is now. I am blank. Maybe a bit of recounting. What happened recently? Well, someone couldn't see. He apparently got punched. Which is quite awkward because the punch wasn't anywhere the eyeballs. Maybe he just has awesome nerve receptors. Multi-functioning nerve receptors in overdrive. Other than that, the "Cyrens" won Cheer. I wasn't there myself. I just...err..."heard"of it from very reliable sources. Next up, my brother is back here from the land of Canada. That's about the only thing interesting in my life. Maybe with some spiritual guidance and feng-shui I can get back on track.

THE INTERNET IS AGAINST ME!

2010-07-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

It seems every time time I want to update my Facebook, Formspring or my blog, I get side-tracked by those devilishly fun websites. Which obviously are against all humanity. But maybe this could be a heavenly sign. A sign that the internet REALLY is the devil. And I'm tempted everyday. Which sucks because all I want to do is have a healthy cyber-social life.

P.s. Why am I even posting in the first person? All my readers are probably gone anyway.

DAYUM evan. =_=

2010-06-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

Still high?

Me, Myself and I

Irrelevance

December...

The next month is November.

The next month

Dilemna.

3 days later.

Reactions to video.

Featuring Tuesday as Holiday and Me in pink shirt.

By the way...

The very first video.

Add a little colour.

Mosquito Water

Is there a point in finding a date?

The End

Side-Tracked

50 kg (Barely)

Solving the boredom problem.

30 May 2011

11 Days

Parties

Natural Disaster.

Happy Discovery of Rings Around Uranus Day.

Happy International Women's Day

The Future...

Happy Valentine's Day.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Stars Don't Like Explaining Themselves.

Post PMR- NOT SO GOOD

9.05 a.m.

You think you're cooler than me.

Who's the boss?

...then it was months

Back for ONLY the 3rd time (hint: sarcasm)

THE INTERNET IS AGAINST ME!

DAYUM evan. =_=

hey, this is sarah leow. just reminding you that i exist. :) HAHAHA. yes, i'm queer.

THE SPAM IS IN A CAN. I LIKE SPAM MEANT. :D

Do you think you're boring??

how cold is Canada?

I'm bored..

HELLO EVAN. I SEE YOU SPAMMED MY FROMSPRING. WELL HERE I AM. :D

i'm still bored

Writer's Block

i overfed your fish....

hey evan..i've had the biggest crush on you for awhile! i don't go on here a lot but message me on www.alertsingle.com under the username "wishfulthinker".

who are your closest friends?

i dont know. maybe. do you feel poetic?

you sound poetic. are you poetic?

why are you so inactive?

You know they have this new mango peach mcflurry? wanna go try sometime? :D

EVANN! :D

POKEMON. MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Wassup.

no i think IT'S a spicy chili. what resembles a spicy chili?

formspring.me

wow. you know that i asked that lifeless question. didnt you eat a chili the other day?

Why LOVE Does Not Work. (First post in a long time)

do you like oreo mcflurry?

So...is everything ok in your life?

are you ever going to not be lifeless?

are your hormones raging?

Why does love suck?

why apple?

What's one food you'll never eat again?

What would your perfect day look like?

formspring.me

Why I Hate Horror Movies. Plus Post-Cross-Country

Soon Was NOT Soon Enough

Currently...

Thoughts

The 2nd Wednesday

The Magical World of GOOGLE

Thur...wait it's WEDNESDAY! What?

The other day...

Thursday

Unusually good...

Wednesday...

THE Dictionary We All Need

The first...of Many AWESOME Days.

2010-Here We Go Again